How to still be happily doing houseworks...

It's Sunday. Laundry (wash, dry and fold)-cleaning (living room, bedroom, toilet) and everything else day... Looking at your currently sleeping partner, warm and cozy between the sheets in your cool air-conditioned bedroom, how do you feel?

Ok, time for another of my friend's imaginations..:

"You are renting your house to this guy who you happen to like. He pays monthly for the accommodation, meals and laundry services. The 'extra services' are well, value added to him and extra advantage for you. Work on your own scenarios, think hard and live it. Now go and look at your 'tenant' and start workin'.."

Just remember that men are not made for multitasking and they really are late bloomers. They're late to bloom up their mind to accept that being single and married are DIFFERENT and have DIFFERENT responsibilities.

Guys, in order to not loose yourself, you really do have to work with your partner and share responsibilities. Not just some, but ALL. THAT's what marriage is about. Else, go find a time machine and go back few hundred years, ok?

As a popular saying goes "Renung-renungkan dan Selamat Beramal!".. Think about it and good luck!

Your LIFE is NOT an option..

One good friend said that happiness is a choice.. an option. You can opt to be happy or unhappy. You can also choose to be yourself or someone else, that's ALWAYS an option. Though it is more advisable to choose to be yourself and not some other monkey or whoever it is.

However, LIFE, is not and never will be something that you can choose. Whether how it starts or ends. You can't choose your parents, siblings, relatives nor offspring(s). You definitely cannot choose when is the perfect moment to start or restart your LIFE as well as the perfect time to end it. There's no perfect time to end LIFE. Why would you want to do that anyway?

You've been given a chance to live. Out of millions of losers (sperms, that is), you made it all the way and now here you are, with limbs and breathing the sweet, sweet God-given air. Polluted or not, every living thing needs air to breathe (ok, excluding those C02 suckers). No matter how life sucks, you just can't end it at your will. Why?

If you believe in God, then you already now why. Else, find God and you'll know, why. Doesn't matter if you do not believe in Him or His existence. Just find Him and find out why. That's the least you should do before you do decide that it is really your choice to take your own life. You owe that to yourself.

So this song is for all of us:

Help Me Make It Through the Night (Kris Kristofferson)

Take the ribbon from my hair
Shake it loose and let it fall
Layin' soft against your skin
Like the shadow on the wall

Come and lay down by ma side
Till the early mornin' light
All I'm takin' is your time
Help me make it through the night

I don't care what's right or wrong
'n' I won't try to understand
Let the devil take tomorrow
Lord, tonight I need a friend

Yesterday is dead and gone
And tomorrow's out of sight
And it's sad to be alone
Help me make it through the night

And it's sad to be alone
Help me make it through the night

I don't want to be alone
Help me make it through the night

How to 'happily' do house chores...

As told by a 'friend'... needs a lot of imagination..

1. Imagine that your current other half is just a friend and not really your partner.. Try to see him or her from that perspective.. Remember how that feels like..
2. Imagine that you are a single parent (if you have kids lah).. and that that spouse of yours is still just a friend.. Look at him and imagine that.. Keep that feeling..
3. Now, while you're doing the things that kinda pisses you off like e.g. cleaning the bedroom right after you got back from work just because.. or picking up dirty cloths from the floor, under the table, chair or ON the chair... you know, things like that.. think on item number 1 and 2 above again and remember the feelings that come with it..

Simply put, let's imagine this scenario:

You just got back from work. The house's a mess and your kids are messing the house more because they're excited to come back home from nursery or school. Then your other half comes back from work too. Now YOU'RE excited (wishful thinking) because you thought he'll help you with the mess or maybe watch the kids while you're cleaning up. But then, he just sits on the sofa and said,"I'm so tired, a cup of coffee would be great" and starts reading the paper.

So you make the coffee and hand it to him, thinking ,"Maybe after he gets some rest, he'll help me". So you start to clean up the living room first. Then you noticed the coffee's finished but he's still reading the paper, now with feet proped up on the coffee table. "Maybe after reading the paper," soothing yourself with that.

Now, you've finished the living room, downstairs toilet, kitchen and the kids' rooms. You opened your bedroom door and see cloths on the floor, under and on the chair, wet towel lumped on the bed and a pool of kain sarong just beside the laundry basket. Not IN it but just BESIDE it. You go downstairs to get some drinks first. You see that he's now watching the TV. With eyes on the tellie, he asks,"What's for dinner?".

So THIS is THE moment for you to look at him and do steps 1 to 2... The logic is, if he's just a friend, who happens to be in your home right now, you will never think of asking him to help out, right? Especially if he's just a friend that you happen to REALLY LIKE or something like that *wink wink.. You'll start to do the house chores by keeping in mind that you want to impress this 'guy' and maybe you know, show off some 'stuff' that could rival the tellie..

Seriously, try it.. and improvise! and remember, if at first you don't succeed, TRY, TRY again... *wink wink.. ouch, eye hurts from too much winking..

Seriously?

OMG! Dah setahun ropanya tak datang sini... hmm time to sambung the stories? maybe..

Drama...

I hate drama.
Why do we wanna put ourselves through that kind of emotional rollercoaster when we can easily get that from our daily lives?? Why, WHY??
I'm just angry, upset.. Arghhhhhhhhhhh..... Why didn't I change the channel when I could've.. Now I'm stuck with waiting for the vidoe to load, just to watch the final episode.

Seriously, it's not like it's the best drama I've ever watched, just that I haven't watched any movies lately nor follow anything on tv for some time.. hence did not think I would easily slip into this drama thingy..
Come to think of it, why do we follow these episodes? Sometimes quoting them and even discuss the episodes like they're real life events? Why are we so easy?

Hmm.. Escapism.. yup.. that sums it all up..

Bila Pemimpin Zalim...

"Ko tak dengar khutbah tadi?," tanya Hadi. "Uhh.. taakk.. Napa?" kata akulak.. Gilo apo, bila masa lak aku nak gi dengar khutbah Jumaat tadi, pompuan mana wajib bai!.. "Ko tau, kat Jerantut dah gempa bumi. Keluar radio dah. Haa, itula tanda-tandanya" sambung si Hadi lagi.. "Tanda apa pulak nih?!" aku dah macam nak hilang kesabaran, walau pun dah makan..

"Tak, camni.. Kan tanda-tanda bila ada pemimpin yang zalim dilantik, akan ada gempa bumi atau asap merah beracun. Salah satu laa. Eeeiii ko tak takut ke? Aku takut dah ni".. explain Hadi dengan panjang dan lebarnya.."Ko sokong sapa?" tambah dia lagi..

"Uhh.. hmm i tak minat aa masuk campur..".."Ishh.. ko tak takut ke?" telunjuk Hadi dah dekat dengan muka aku dah nih..Eii mamat nih, aku kepak gak jari tu kang!.. "Kang dengan kita-kita pun boleh kena tau.. sebab kita yang lantik..Ishh seram aku.." bersemangat betul Hadi..

"Mana u tau dia kejam?" layan aku pulak.. "Dia bila tak suka, semua dibunuhnya, meletup gak aa.. apa yang dia suka, tak kisah la orang punya ke, dia main amik je! Tak ke kejam tu?!" Hadi dah nampak cam unstoppable so aku pun tanya aa,"Mana u tau ni? Proven ke?.."

Ibarat pakai handphone waktu isi minyak, maka meletuplah si mamat nih,"Itulah ko, tak amik tau.. dah heboh dah tapi diorg cover-up.. kambing hitam pun jadik.. kesian betul aku kat kerja makan gaji tu.. dah tuan dia suruh bunuh, dia pun ikut jer laa.. pastu bila ada kes, tuan dia jerat dia balik..".

Aku angguk-angguk je lah.. Kang setuju, lagi panjang citer.. Tak setuju pun panjang gak jadinya kang..

Lady in the dark...

She tried to close her eyes, but sleep eluded.. She got up then sat on the bed's edge.. Looking at her reflection in the mirror.. Dim light from behind cast eerie shadows, even her own looked menacing..

Tears flowed while she sat.. She waited for her lover's arms, to feel the warmth and strength flowing.. Needed to be safe, and loved..

Why am I not in those arms?

She sat still, looking at her lover's reflection..

Waiting..

Belah mana, bang?

This morning, hubby was picking up our baby to bring her downstairs. I saw his hair was still a mess so asked,"Abg dah sikat rambut ker?".. Polite way to tell someone something is by asking a question.."Blom"..that's me hubby.. tarak banyak cakap punya olang..

Since he was holding the baby, I took the initiative to help comb his hair. So I took the sikat and started combing. Halfway through, he looked directly at me and said,"Dahlah. Tak payah"..Hurt, I asked him why..

"Aihh abang punya rambut belah mana pun tak tau ker?".. Aiseh, kantoi!.. "Umm.. hmm ehehe".. that's all I could say then..

Seasons in the Sun...(Season 3, Pt 3)

Pin..Piinn...
"Apahal la pulak ni nak pin-pin orang.. bawak jerlaa motor tu diam-diam!" I continued walking with that thought in my head.. "Hai, sorang ke?" I slowly looked back while still walking, slowed the pace not one bit..Oh, it's abg Nodi..I just smiled at him.."Nak tumpang ke? Jauh jalan ke school ni. Mehla abg hantarkan".. "Uhh takpelah, dah biasa jalan.. boleh exercise", answered with a smile.. I liked him.. but like like aa not REALLY really like!.. "Betol nih? Kang jangan nyosal lak.. betul ni??".. "Betul.. takper, tima kasih.." With that, he went ahead..

At school..

I was walking out from the cafe with Eeps.. Shit, the cute guy's here.. dang! While walking the stairs to the foyer, I looked the other way.. but still can see the cute guy from the corner of my eyes.. "Uhh girl, mai sat".. The cute guy was calling for Eeps.. Eeps stopped right-away,"Saya ka?".. "Yes, you. Your baju kurung is not buttoned. I can see you chest, girl".. There and then I threw a 'You've-got-to-be-kidding-me!' look at him.. Cute but rude! Ok, name crossed off me list!.. The look on Eeps face stopped me from making a scene with the now not-so-cute guy..

Same place, different time...

I was stopped on my way climbing up the stairs.."Assalamualaikum. Can I talk to you for a sec?".. Hmm small but still cute..Dang! Ok, just remember how he treated Eeps, that'll cool you down..
"Yes?".. "Do you know cukur kening tu haram?" he asked with that I-know-everything voice.. "Yes. So?".. "So, kalau dah tau, why did you do it?".. "Huh?".. "Hang cukur kening kan?".. "Bilamasa lak I cukur?".. "So that's your natural kening? You didn't cukur?".. He was daring me to admit the truth.. "Yes! Manader I cukur! Lain kali tanya la dulu seblum main tuduh-tuduh je!".. That said, continued my walk to class.. Heard his friends laughing at him.. Padan muka.. My smile lasted till break time.

Seasons in the Sun...(Season 3, Pt 2)

I love semester breaks!
The whole lab is mine!! Now I can telnet and e-mail the whole day without feeling guilty for skipping classes.. eheh..Hmm except for a few PCs occupied by early-birdies of students who came back early.. Or who didn't go back at all for the break.. Gee, I wonder why..
And how I started to get close to abg Boy.. Still depressed with the 'mamat' thing, I just need to let out to someone.. or maybe be more 'friendly' to the other species? hmm maybe..Baaaad idea.
Turns-out abg Boy was soo flattered by my 'friendliness' in the emails that he felt like sharing with someone else.. Or rather, with a lot of elses, like the whole of his friends.. When told about this, I was really looking forward to lean down the railings outside the labs and JUMP! naaahhh... Sticks and stones may break my bones but words, will not hurt as much.. just longer..

Prior to feel-like-jumping scene...

"Chek, nak tanya skit.. How close are you to abg Boy?".. Huh? The cute guy's talking to me?! "Why?" I just had to kerut kening.. So he told what happened at Jati and how he didn't feel right about it.. He was under the impression that I was so head-over-heels with this Abg Boy that I wrote those mushy-mush emails with words like 'miss u' and stuff.. Wahahahah! How I wish I was a nail.. PLEASE hit me with a hammer, hit me HARD to the floor then carpet it up so that I'll never be seen again.
Cute guy was looking at me, no.. make it STARING at me.. "Are you blushing?" Dang, maybe he should be the nail, being straight as one.. "No..tetiba rasa panas lak. Air-cond rosak kot"..
After explaining that I was just having fun with abg Boy and no actual serious feeling was involved, we talked for a while before parting..

Seasons in the Sun...(Season 3, Pt 1)

The Dewan's door opened and Lynx walked in.. Guess I'm a good friend after all, still right here waiting for my best friend after a loong 30 mins.. "Ok, remember! Be supportive.. be happy for her.." Just had to remind myself, just in case.. But the Lynx that came in was not the same Lynx that went out.. well she looked the same but there's something not right.. she didn't looked sad, though.. "So? camne?".. "Umm.. aku nak duduk dulu bleh? Aku seriously tak boleh nak pikir nih.." Lynx sat down beside me, looking straight ahead.. then continued,"Ok. Aku dah jumpa dia tadi.. Dia kata dia pun suka kat aku.." O be still pounding heart! Please oh PLEASE God, don't let these dang tears come again.. "Tapi..ko ingat tak akak senior ni.. Cherrie.." Straightaway I knew the 'akak' she's talking about.. "Yeah, of corz.. Antara senior yang aku suka.. Baik and tak merepek macam seniors lain.. apsal?".."Hmm abg Muck kata, dia dah lama minat kat akak ni.. so.." The rest said, I told Lynx to just forget about this 'mamat' and ended my opinion with a colorful expletive.. Man! Felt good to mencarut..